Dead Inside

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It is difficult to review a memoir of someone's life as the plot and characters all come from reality. The Dead Inside proves to be a chilling and eye-opening tale of a child from a damaged family being forced into the worst circumstances and brainwashed. It's heart wrenching to watch her fighting spirit die and see her slowly start to believe that she is the one who has done something wrong. The Dead Inside is an emotional, bleak read- and a very important one at that. Not only is the memoir insightful about one particular kind of 'treatment' program that was tested on youth, but it is also read that stirs thoughts regarding opportunity (and limits to) for forgotten or hidden youth; parental abuse; as well the dangers inherent in labeling teens as 'bad' kids. Many intense subjects are openly approached in this title: sexual abuse, verbal abuse, psychological and physical trauma for a start. Etler does not broach any subject matter in a benevolent, timid fashion- and The Dead Inside makes all the more impact for it. Etler's memoir is one read that I feel needs to be experienced for the full impact; I fear that I cannot do justice to aptly describing or condensing the dark and compelling nature of this memoir. Consider this your goddamn trigger warning.This story is short being a novella and totally entertaining. We follow an unnamed narrator as he goes about explaining and indulging in his unconventional proclivities and then he meets a girl...thus the story begins, but rest assured, this is unlike any love story you've ever come across. This is a nightmare made tangible both to the protagonist and the reader.

The story is what makes this book good, the writing is nothing special and, in truth, confusing at times. I feel like the tenses and pov change without proper transition, which is understandable for the story being told, but not for style in this context. A modern-day Cinderella, Cyndy Etler was homeless at fourteen, summa cum laude at thirty. Currently a young adult author and teen life coach, Etler spent sixteen years teaching troubled teens in schools across America. Cyndy Drew Etler's been through hell. And she came out of it and had to learn how to survive the aftermath. She's turned that hell into art that makes the rest of us feel less alone. I became Cyndy's friend because of her book. I read an early self-published version. This one? It's tight, beautiful and epic. I want everyone to read this book. I'm not sure how to rate this story - part of me wants to praise the author for the skill to make me read it all the way through, while another part wants to put drain cleaner and a straw into my ear to give my brain a cerebral enema. Morrison’s focus on personal growth and transformation through introspection allows for a deep exploration of characters, their relationships, and motivations.they proceed to hang out quite a lot. the mc is obviously very disgruntled and grossed out by the fact that he’s actually relating to another human being and to his absolute horror, he actually starts to like her, in his own sociopathic way. I think what I loved the most about this book is the writing style. I love how poetic this book is. The metaphors stated here were beautifully painted in my mind as I read them. The mention of some old music is amazing too. (Shine On You Crazy Diamond and The Wall by Floyd are my favorites.) While reading this book, I felt like I was either watching a sad 90’s movie or listening to a friend talk. It was an easy read but the contents are not easy on my eyes and my heart. And that’s okay. I think I can take that. The book examines the idea of connecting with something greater than oneself through religious symbolism, such as prayer and meditation. So yeah I am quite shooketh to say the least. And after every twisted thing I just read what I'm the most surprised by, is the 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐎𝐑 the book had. I was ready for being disturbed or grossed out but i was not prepared to be amused, and by that i do mean me laughing my ass off at how absurdly funny some of the quotes were. And I have No shame whatsoever admitting this.

Don’t try to make sense of it, just read and watch where it takes you. I looked away numerous times saying in my head no way did I just read that because of how disgusting this book is. Yeah, it’s really… really graphic, bad, and deranged. My own, personal experience was that I was totally grossed out by like 80% of this book. However, Morrison's writing is engaging. I found myself skimming over some of the more detailed accounts of specific actions, just to get to the parts where the characters were having a dialog about their feelings or the story had progressed past points of discomfort and I wanted to see what was going to happen. Like all the best extreme horror, What Good Girls Do leaves you with the urge to go and bleach your soul after reading...' Alex Davis, creator of Film Gutter The book ‘Dead Inside’, by Chandler Morrison, presents an exploration of the philosophical conflict between spirituality and secularism, as well as faith and doubt. Hmm...what to say about Chandler Morrison’s DEAD INSIDE? Well, the writing is phenomenal. Top notch, compulsive storytelling, character building, and vivid imagery. Morrison is an untouchable genius writing about a taboo subject, gore, and deplorable characters. There’s imagery that is way over the line and that I can never “unsee” no matter how hard I try. We follow two people that find each other despite their gross idiosyncrasies - so at the heart of it, it’s a love story.

The central theme of Dead Inside is a powerful inner struggle that examines the complexity of mental health. It delves into the topics of self-realization, understanding and accepting one’s own identity, and how to cope with personal struggles.